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Anon (USA): What's going on, body?!

Anon (USA): What's going on, body?!

Since I was 16, I felt there was something wrong with my body. I would constantly gain weight and was having to wax/thread my face every week. The hair growth and weight gain really confused me, however I had no explanation for any of these symptoms. Any time I went to the doctor I was dismissed and told to lose weight as I was already in the overweight category.

At 21, I finally lost weight as I was getting married, but my hirsutism did not subside. After the wedding, I did not maintain the same fitness routine and thus began to gain weight again, and this time the excess hair was out of control.

After doing a preliminary Google search I self-diagnosed with PCOS. I went to my PCP at my local hospital and continually asked her to check for PCOS or to test my hormone levels. Unfortunately, she was extremely dismissive and continued to check my thyroid over and over again.

Finally, when I was out of the country, I was able to order an at-will pelvic exam and have my hormones tested. Sure enough my LH and FSH levels were completely imbalanced, and my male hormones were raging; both ovaries "appeared polycystic" on the ultrasound.

It saddens me that the healthcare system blatantly neglected me as a patient. Although self-diagnosis can be harmful, in my case I was hyper aware of what was happening to my body and it turned out that I was right. All in all, my PCP and local hospital were negligent towards my health and I had to find other means to get a prognosis. It is frustrating to me when I hear how common this is and how so often PCOS patients get pushed to the side or told to "just lose weight".  

Beth (USA): Finding Joy through infertility

Beth (USA): Finding Joy through infertility

Anon (Sweden): A girl met a boy

Anon (Sweden): A girl met a boy